My Life

Good-bye new state

Good-bye new the freeway

Good-bye new friends

Good-bye new house

Middle the states

Middle the freeway

Middle the restaurants

Middle the hotel

Hello old state

Hello old freeway

Hello old friends
Hello old home

Good-bye new family

Hello old family

Good-bye new pain

Hello old peace

good-bye coward

HELLO CONFIDENCE

good-bye hellish chapter

HELLO NEW CHAPTER

...I am happy!!!

My Stroke: Aphasia and Apraxia

My ex-husband wrote (my blog) what happened after my stroke (and thanks Jacob).  I want to write myself now....because my story is not done.

There a stroke group and I go when I can...I love it (thanks Megan and Dr. Kendall!).  We watched a movie called "Aphasia: Hope is a four letter word."  Before I was watching, I think I forget a little...I forget the therapy in the hospital.  But when I was watch the movie, I remembered.  There is a scene...Carl (the man with aphasia) went to a party.  There was a jackass...he yelled to Carl, "Hey Carl, where is your nose?"  And, of course, he doesn't know (and yes, that happened).  I remember sitting in the hospital...and the therapist said, "Julie, where is your nose?"  Guess what?  I didn't know.  I didn't know my body parts.  That was so, so humiliating.  There is aphasia...evil aphasia (ummm, I can say I know my body parts again...phew haha!).

After we moved to Washington, we met Megan.  There was a study in Washington of University.  Megan was my speech therapist for 6 weeks...5 days and 2 hours.  Megan taught to phonics again.  For me, that was awesome!  My speech therapists in Utah was so good, but I was slow.  After working and WORKING with Megan, I was talking better and better (so, so, so happy).  There was a test with the study.  There was weird no-real word...I have to try talk that (hate it! Haha), reading, numbers, and naming pictures.  Naming pictures was frustrating, because there was a lot that I know that name, but my silly mouth.  Like, there was a picture...there was a "treasure."  My brain said, "Oooh, a treasure!"  I tried...again and again...but NOPE.  My mouth was working....silly, dumb, silly mouth.  Thank you, apraxia.  When I was talking to Megan and I seeing a picture I said, "Ugh, it is right there (pointing my forehead) but my mouth is not working!"  Haha that is my life right now.  

So...that is a little my story.  I'm not done, but right now after 2 hours, I got to go ;).  Thank you for reading you want to.  :)

Hi my blog! I miss you!

Well...my hell is done. Hallelujah!!!!!!!!!!!!!  No trial, no drama...now, I can write again (haha kinda ;)).  I could write what happen, but who cares?  LOL that's why I go to therapy (YAY therapy!).  ;)  

Freedom is awesome.

1 year ago my life was crazy.  I was shy, anxious, SAD, and not happy.  It is hard still...blah blah stroke blah blah...but now, I am confident and happy...still lonely but I am moving to Utah.  :)  Hi family and friends, I am coming!!!

Favorite Quote

(Thanks Karin...)

"Life has no other discipline to impose,

If we would but realize it,

Than to accept life unquestioningly.

Everything we shut our eyes to,

Everything we run away from, everything we deny,

Denigrate or despise, serves to defeat us in the end.

What seems nasty, painful, evil,

Can become a source of beauty, joy and strength,

if faced with an open mind.

Every moment is a golden one for him

Who has the vision to recognize is a such."

-Henry Miller

I'm okay.

I can't talk/write...divorce, court, my hubby, hubby's family, lawyers, drama, etc (well, now right...after I'm divorced...eh, if I want to).

But, I can write that I'm good.  It is hard (STRESS!), but I'm stronger (lol right wisp?  CD...I like it!!).  Before, my hubby was help me...my pills, doctor appointments...really any the talk haha.  That now...ME...I do it.  My pill, my doctor appointments, restaurants, shopping, etc.  Like, I was to the mall...because my phone was old and my bill and my hubby's bills...ANYWAY...so, I said, "Hi, it's hard to talk because my stroke.  Please can you help me?"  He helped me. Yay!!  Also, we go a park all the time...when they play the kids I will go where Moms...we chit chat.  I'm not anxious.  :)

So...divorce is...NOT is my favorite.  But, I'm okay, I'm stronger because I have to...that good! :)

Ooops

Sorry September...my bad.  I was going to write but...court is...well, NOT my favorite.  Stress, drama (not me...sigh), etc.  That is all...right now.

Sooo, again, sorry September.  I will write again October...I hope.

WOW...

...guess what?  You did it...you did it.  ::clapping clapping clapping::  Good job (oh sarcasm)!!!!!

Also...thanks Within Temptation.  Ditto.