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1. They are jumping on the bed.

2. Those bears ard kissing.

3. Those elephants are pink.

4. There are two sharks.

5. Their noses are long.

6. He is petting his cow.

7. She has a scarf.

8. Those sheep are dancing.

9. He has a big carrot.

10. He has two cars.

Yeah.

testing...one..two...three...

I HATE having a stroke. I am glad I am not dead, but the stroke makes everything very hard. I can't type yet without help, but I am learning.

Thank you to everyone that has helped and written me. I wish I could write back.

Bye. I will write more soon. :-)

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Hi. I am home. I am glad to be back. Jacob is helping me write this.

Back to Work

I learned something today...6 weeks is a LOT longer when you're pregnant than when you're not. When I found out I was pregnant and decided how much maternity leave I wanted to take, 6 weeks sounded like more than enough. I had my babies and it seemed like I wouldn't have to come back to work forever.

And yet, here I am.

At first it was fun...I got to catch up w/my co-workers and meet a lot of new people who were hired while I was gone. But now, 5 hours into my shift, I seriously don't wanna be here any more.

Maybe it's because I'm worried about the babies behaving for Jacob (he said it took them a really long time to go to sleep tonight, sigh), maybe it's because I have a lot of stuff to catch up on which I'm not super excited about (I had almost 300 emails in my inbox...), maybe it's because I'm EXHAUSTED (that is another story in itself...I've been sick for over a month now with what turned out to be bronchitis...problem is I didn't do anything about it until it got so bad that I physically became unable to breathe while laying down, which of course made sleep literally impossible. I haven't gotten more than 3 consecutive hrs of sleep...no exaggeration...in 2 weeks)...it's surely a combination of all those things. But I really do NOT want to be here.

I genuinely thought that I would be excited to have an aspect of my life that's not 100% about babies because let's be honest, I love my kids more than I can describe but it is difficult to be in baby land all the time, but at this moment I would rather be elbow deep in poo and spit up (um, thanks for that imagery, Julie!) than here taking phone calls and trying to prioritize my to do list (which eventually ended up with me blogging...yeah, that makes sense). And working is not the only way to keep one of my feet in the "adult world." Just saying.

It's only my first day back, I should probably give it some time.

The REALLY bad part is that I don't TECHNICALLY have to be here. Jacob got a new job right after I had the twins (which was awesome but super stressful for him, poor guy) and his salary is enough that I honestly don't have to work. We also qualify for health insurance as of his hire date, so that resolves the other reason I needed to come back. Then again, it would probably be prudent to hang on to this job...the company that hired Jacob is really new and not profitable so there's a bit of risk involved as far as stability is concerned. So we could fall back on this job for income if Jacob's company doesn't stay afloat.

But right now I don't wanna.

Hopefully it gets better soon. Or maybe we'll decide it's better for everyone if I quit. Perhaps we should consult the Magic 8 ball...?

In other news, I started to write a review of Scream 4 but I don't think I'll be finishing it so let me state that first off, Jacob is awesome b/c he insists I get out of the house every so often to do something fun, and since I'm weird and like seeing movies by myself that's what I do. Jacob is the best. And secondly, I enjoy the Scream movies because I like their commentary on the horror/slasher genre. Scream 4 did not disappoint. If you recall my post from a while back lamenting screenwriters and directors' departure from the slasher film moral code...well, this movie addresses that very thing with witty and intellgent banter, and that's something I greatly appreciate. So long story short, I recommend Scream 4. It would be a way better use of your time than Insidious, which I also saw...which totally sucked (you don't even know what movie I'm talking about, I bet, since it was so awful and did horribly in theaters).

Ok. That is all for now. Until next time...bye.

All is Right in Our World...

...now that our sweet baby Jaxon is out of the hospital and home with us where he belongs. :-)

On Thursday morning the pediatrician called and said he could come home on Friday as long as I could come spend the night with him in the hospital so I could get used to all his equipment. He's on oxygen and a heart monitor, so I had to go learn how to use all that stuff. So I spent Thursday night in a hospital room w/him, then I got to take him home yesterday just in time for his 2 week doctor's appointment (which included his circumcision, poor guy). Doc says hopefully he'll be able to go off the oxygen in a couple of weeks.

So yeah, my kid is adorable, as is his brother (who is already a whopping 6 lbs 9 oz...Jaxon is 5 lbs 7 oz)...

We have them sleeping in their pack 'n play for now, which works out pretty well. They've been pretty good to us as far as sleep is concerned...we get up every few hours to feed them and then put them back down and they usually go right back to sleep. We've been pretty lucky I think, I'm still pretty sleep-deprived but I think considering the fact that I'm a first time mom with twins, being able to get a few hours of sleep here and there is the most I can hope for so I won't complain.

Anyway, there's the happy update for you all. I'm sure I will be posting more pics soon as well as getting back to ranting and raving about something other than how much I'm sick of being pregnant (haha for the record, I LOVE not being pregnant...I'm already back in my pre-pregnancy pants and I can wear shoes again!!).

Love you all. :-)

Yup, I'm Alive...Kinda

Just wanted to post a brief update before you all write me off as being dead...

My blood pressure spiked even more last Friday so my gyno decided to induce me that day...was admitted to the hospital around 1pm, doc broke my water at 3pm, got my epidural (the first time...took them 3 times to get it in) at 4pm, then again at 7pm (they had to take it out b/c it was only working on one side, took them another 3 tries to get it back in but it actually worked after all that), was wheeled back to the OR at 10pm (I didn't have a c-section, it's standard procedure to deliver twins in an OR in case something goes wrong), and after a grand total of 15 minutes of pushing both babies were born. Jameson Michael was 5lbs 8oz and Jaxon Gregory was 4lbs 11oz.

We were told that aside from a small issue with their blood sugar levels both were fine...but then the next day we were told that the blood sugar issue had resolved but they were having trouble maintaining a high enough body temp due to being so small and not being able to eat enough.

Long story short, I was discharged on Sunday, Jameson was discharged on Monday, and Jaxon is still in the hospital...he still isn't eating enough to maintain his body temp so they have him on a feeding tube. So right now we're adjusting to having a new baby at home while having another one in the hospital, and it's not easy. We can't go visit him at the same time b/c we can't bring Jameson w/us now that he's been discharged. So I go every day by myself for his 4:00 feeding and Jacob stays home w/Jameson. It literally breaks my heart that I can't be with him all the time...and I feel horribly guilty that I can only see him for an hour a day. But he has a 24 hr nursing staff caring for him and Jameson only has Jacob and I, so that's what I have to do most of the time. Not that I don't love caring for Jameson, he's been a really good baby so far...I just want BOTH my sons home so very desperately.

Hopefully Jaxon will get to come home soon...he has been gaining weight, as of today he's 4lbs 13oz so hopefully he will be big enough soon to use his calories to continue growing instead of solely to keep warm. The nurse told me in her opinion he could probably come home this weekend or Monday, but of course it's completely up to the doctor.

So that's why I've been silent lately...I can't even think about it without crying so I'm really not up for talking. Thank you for all the phone calls, texts, facebook comments, etc. We're holding off on posting a lot of pics until both babies are home...but here are a few we took in the hospital. :-)

So...I promise we will post a bunch once everyone's home safe and sound. In the meantime, thanks again for all your concern, it does mean a LOT to me and I'm sorry I haven't been better about expressing my gratitude. Love you all.