Thursday, March 24, 2011

Yup, I'm Alive...Kinda

Just wanted to post a brief update before you all write me off as being dead...

My blood pressure spiked even more last Friday so my gyno decided to induce me that day...was admitted to the hospital around 1pm, doc broke my water at 3pm, got my epidural (the first time...took them 3 times to get it in) at 4pm, then again at 7pm (they had to take it out b/c it was only working on one side, took them another 3 tries to get it back in but it actually worked after all that), was wheeled back to the OR at 10pm (I didn't have a c-section, it's standard procedure to deliver twins in an OR in case something goes wrong), and after a grand total of 15 minutes of pushing both babies were born. Jameson Michael was 5lbs 8oz and Jaxon Gregory was 4lbs 11oz.

We were told that aside from a small issue with their blood sugar levels both were fine...but then the next day we were told that the blood sugar issue had resolved but they were having trouble maintaining a high enough body temp due to being so small and not being able to eat enough.

Long story short, I was discharged on Sunday, Jameson was discharged on Monday, and Jaxon is still in the hospital...he still isn't eating enough to maintain his body temp so they have him on a feeding tube. So right now we're adjusting to having a new baby at home while having another one in the hospital, and it's not easy. We can't go visit him at the same time b/c we can't bring Jameson w/us now that he's been discharged. So I go every day by myself for his 4:00 feeding and Jacob stays home w/Jameson. It literally breaks my heart that I can't be with him all the time...and I feel horribly guilty that I can only see him for an hour a day. But he has a 24 hr nursing staff caring for him and Jameson only has Jacob and I, so that's what I have to do most of the time. Not that I don't love caring for Jameson, he's been a really good baby so far...I just want BOTH my sons home so very desperately.

Hopefully Jaxon will get to come home soon...he has been gaining weight, as of today he's 4lbs 13oz so hopefully he will be big enough soon to use his calories to continue growing instead of solely to keep warm. The nurse told me in her opinion he could probably come home this weekend or Monday, but of course it's completely up to the doctor.

So that's why I've been silent lately...I can't even think about it without crying so I'm really not up for talking. Thank you for all the phone calls, texts, facebook comments, etc. We're holding off on posting a lot of pics until both babies are home...but here are a few we took in the hospital. :-)








So...I promise we will post a bunch once everyone's home safe and sound. In the meantime, thanks again for all your concern, it does mean a LOT to me and I'm sorry I haven't been better about expressing my gratitude. Love you all.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Good post sis....love the pics. :) You are doing so well! Glad to hear Jaxon is gaining weight steadily. :) He is almost there! Love you guys.

wisp said...

Baaaaaabiiiiieeees! They're beautiful! I love them! Jaxon will be with you soon, sweetie! We love all of you and miss all of you!!! *hugshugshugshugs*

Rob and Emmalee said...

Hang in there! I know how hard it is to have one in the NICU ( my oldest was for 2 1/2 weeks). Don't give yourself too bad of a time for not being there, you can only do so much. Thank God for modern medicine. I be praying for your family!

Cajsa said...

while I *would* like for the most important thing in your life right now to be calling me without crying and telling me all about popping out babies and how it feels to be a mother, I am pretty sure it's okay for y'all to focus on your two little darlings and nothing else. You are amazing for tending to one at home and one in the hospital, and I don't think you need to feel guilty about either. they are prolly pretty happy just to be alive you know? ps. they are beautiful. I am not biased.

Ari Hill said...

so PERFECT!! I love it! I'm so happy for you! I cant wait for more updates when your rested (HA). They are so handsome and I love the names. Way to go momma! I know how much you deserve this! I'm so happy for you!!!

Mandi said...

So glad to know you are alive...kinda. You are a great mom!! BTW Peanut Butter cookies from hospital cafeterias are really yummy they helped me through with Savannah so when you need a little pick me up try those. You are awesome and your boys are adorable:)

*LyndiLou* said...

Sorry I'm slow in saying anything... CONGRATULATIONS! I'm glad they are both finally here! :)

Those two look like the sweetest little guys around! I'm sorry they aren't both home yet... but it sounds like you're juggling things well. Be kind to yourself... you're working hard and you'll have them both in your arm at the SAME time soon! ;)

I'm extremely happy for you. Love you lots.